last day of school

during recess
i would watch from a distance
all the little boys and their
pretty girls kissing
in the bushes.
i would watch because
this is where I pissed
every morning
and at night
i would dream of all the
pretty girls
soaking in my urine.

how to be alone:
never open up to anyone
when speaking to others, look down and talk to the stains on your shoes
bite holes in the sleeves of your favorite shirts
look up words in a dictionary and then use them out of context
argue against your own beliefs
live alone and never sleep at night
tell them anything because they wont understand anyways
learn how to make cats purr

how to die alone:
dont fuck dont drive dont cook dont laugh dont own shoes dont talk dont write dont paint green doors dont play songs dont write on walls dont stare at moles on girls dont share feelings or thoughts on dying children in the wombs of raped women dont explain yourself when they say you are lying dont do anything die alone and learn how to smile